Milestones

This is the 10th year since leaving JC.

More than half of my friends have kids, are getting married, or are progressing towards marital bliss.

Will be 28 next week.

Time flies. Do we find ourselves becoming the things we swore that we would avoid when we were young? Or were we foolish back then? Sometimes, I look back at who I was 10 years ago, and feel like that was a completely different person. So many life experiences and memories. The cliched storyline where the protagonist wishes he could talk to his younger self from many years ago... that has more resonance now.

But yet I feel like things are standing still. Maybe it's because I want to have a family but can't yet. Maybe it's not having a special someone physically present. There are many things I miss about not having H around. Having someone to rant to, to be comforted by at the end of a long and weary day : that is something infinitely precious that I miss each and every moment.

Tracy Chapman's Fast Car
You got a fast car
I want a ticket to anywhere
Maybe we make a deal
Maybe together we can get somewhere
Anyplace is better
Starting from zero got nothing to lose
Maybe we'll make something
But me myself I got nothing to prove

You got a fast car
But is it fast enough so we can fly away
We gotta make a decision
We leave tonight or live and die this way

I remember we were driving driving in your car
The speed so fast I felt like I was drunk
City lights lay out before us
And your arm felt nice wrapped 'round my shoulder
And I had a feeling that I belonged
And I had a feeling I could be someone, be someone, be someone