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I am....

not the stereotypical slim asian guy
more than the sum of my parts
32 flavors and then some
a geek and lover rolled into one
deeper than i seem
an avid runner
aching very much from very strained shoulder muscles
wishing i could be with my significant other
loving my job but terrified that things are too good to be true
much better at saving than i used to be
always worried that i'm in over my head when it comes to work
glad to have had a generally fortunate life
grateful for having such good friends
always envious of people who are natural dancers
a choco-holic
a carnivore
always biting off as much as i can chew

but most importantly, i am who i am, and i like it that way.

Ajantis can turn his neck only 30 degrees each way at the moment...

Weekend + long = glorious!?

This weekend was pretty fun. Friday was D&D day (dungeons and dragons for those non-geeks not in the know), while I spent most of Saturday hanging out with Eun. We watched Mission Impossible 3, and wandered around Bugis shopping and getting lost trying to find Singapore's only synagogue. Talked about swing, relationships, people, work, politics, the works. We capped off the night by eating my favorite sambal salted fish fried rice (no egg, no bean sprouts) at Boat Quay, and then dancing a little bit at Harry's. It's always energising sharing your opinions and experiences with someone whom you can intellectually engage with. I'm glad that we got to spend some quality time together :)

Mission Impossible 3 was pretty ok for a popcorn movie. The physics in that movie was a little bit on the surreal side, though. For those who've seen the movie, just think about the fulcrum scene in Shanghai and how impossible that really is.

Another surreal thing that happened this weekend : L using the term "apropos" in an msn conversation. I think my jaw nearly dropped.

I spent Sunday being social too. Had dinner with L and Zeph at Carl's Jr, then met some swing friends near home for a drink.

And yet, as I was walking home, i was struck by a slight wave of sadness. Part of it was the pre-monday blues, but part of it was cos i was missing H more than usual. I've done a pretty good job of keeping myself busy the past 6 years, but everytime I catch up with friends and whatnot, it always makes me a little bit sad that H is not there to share in the experience with me. Seeing swing friends up and move to be with their significant others, whether it be in Japan, India, or Australia, is also bittersweet. I'm happy for them, but I'm also reminded that I can't do that yet ;)

Ah well, 4 more years! Just gotta keep plugging away!

Ajantis keeps running....

Meme stealing

Got this from glambren's blog.

1. My ex is: probably living in France and still singing Gilbert and Sullivan tunes at the top of her lungs

2. Maybe I should: learn to be less insecure.

3. I love: H

4. I don't understand: why life sometimes has to be so complicated

5. I lose: my patience too often

6. People say I'm: smart but silly

7. Love is: passion that makes you both want to be a better person for each other ( saw this on glambren's reply and i couldn't agree more). Another answer : like seeing the world in colour for the first time

8. Somewhere, someone is: thinking of what life means to them

9. I will always: want to do more and learn more

10. Forever is: hard to contemplate

11. I never want to: feel like i have not squeezed everything out of life

12. I think the current US President: is an I-D-I-O-T

13. When I wake up in the morning: I start worrying about the things to do for the day

14. My past was: something i think about but have gotten over

15. I get annoyed when: things don't always go my way

16. Parties are for: catching up with friends

17. My dog is: a french bulldog that i will owe someday

18. My cat is: imaginary

19. Kisses are the best when: you mean it

20. Tomorrow: is always a new day and new experience

21. I really want: to be with H and start our family right now

22. I have low tolerance for people who: have closed minds

Ajantis likes memes....

Am I? I am Superman

Cat said something at the end of our gab and meal-fest today (dim sum buffet + milo dinosaur = one stuffed Ajantis). She said that i seemed like much more of a saver since i was always analysing things around me. I always find it somewhat jolting when someone makes an observation like that. Just cos i don't think of myself as analytical or always trying to put things together. But guess that's what i intuitively do. I like things to make sense.

Do you ever think about having kids? I do, often. Not sure if it's the result of being an only child but deep down inside, i've always wanted to share my life and love not only with a significant other but with my kids. Someone told me recently at a meeting that it was important to have kids early so you could really enjoy watching them grow up before you got too old. That makes a lot of sense. Which is why it's so frustrating to have to wait so long before H and I can be together again. Part of me wants to go back to my original plan of doing a PhD as soon as I can, but i also know that means a fairly large financial sacrifice, especially if i'm not sure if i want to be in the academic field. And the other part wants to have kids, right now! Obviously my brain is kind of running in all directions right now, so i guess it makes sense just to leave it at that for now.

Ajantis wants 2.5 kids....like any other Singaporean.

HG

Seriously funny set of clips that Zephyr passed to me

Hard Gay foo! To think that it is the comic creation of just this one man. Japanese sure have a wacky sense of humour. I'm not really sure that it would fly in Singapore.

Another clip that Zeph passed to me. Man people sure have strange ideas about what looks good on video.

Read an interesting article the other day on USA Today about how financial compatibility (or the lack thereof) is often a key source of friction between couples. I'm definitely more of a saver than H, which is interesting given that I used to suck at saving money. My mom just topped up my allowance whenever I needed money, and I was terrible at controlling impulse buys. On reflection, i think the turning point was when I had to borrow money from mom despite having a scholarship allowance. That kinda woke me up, and made me realise i needed to be smarter with my budget. Simple things like getting a proper calling card and paying 5 cents a minute to call the US instead of the University's rate of 2 bucks a minute :)

Ran 18km last night and about 38 km this week! Also introduced fartlek/interval training into my routine. I've now officially exceeded the distance I ran before I injured myself last September. And the good news is that my ankle is only giving mild complaints. The stretches and orthotic soles are definitely helping. We'll see :)

Ajantis wants to be like Hard Gay!